(Thursday night)
Dear Diary, I can’t believe what just happened. I can’t believe what I just did. I’m at a loss. Depressed doesn’t describe me now. I’m on the verge of losing it all! It all started last night. We had a wonderful dinner celebration. It was Passover, my favorite time of the year. I was there with Jesus and eleven of my closest friends. He said to us, “One of you will betray me”. It was shocking. Who would do such a thing to someone like Him? I told Him, “Lord, even if all of these guys betray you, I won’t!” There was no way I would do that! I’d rather die at His side than betray Him! He told me, “Peter, before the rooster crows three times you will deny Me.” It stung to be honest. Because partly, I can’t recall a time when He was wrong. Partly I didn’t want to think that I would be capable of such a horrific thing. I pushed it aside and stayed my ground. Anyway, last night, in the garden, I made the first mistake. I fell asleep as He prayed. I heard His prayers out loud and saw Him cry. He even seemed to have blood dripping down from His brow. But the sleep overtook me. Not once but 3 different times! How embarrassing! And then Judas came with soldiers and arrested Jesus. I thought I could stand up for Him, but I only ended up cutting off an ear in my drowsiness. UUGH! And then I ran. We all did. I was afraid. Jesus said we would earlier that night, but I didn’t want to believe it could happen by me. That’s twice when He needed me by His side, that I failed! And then it happened….I knew they probably would take Him to the High Priest’s home to find some fault with Him. So I followed. When I came into the courtyard someone said to me, "You also were with Jesus of Nazareth." I said, "Not me, wrong guy. I don’t know the Man!" and then left to go sit by a porch. A servant girl there said to others around me, “This is one of them!” I denied it and left. I figured I go sit by the fire. It was a cold night. I was a bit on edge by the time I got to the fire. Just as I sat down, someone said to me, “You’re from Galilee. I can tell by the drawl in your voice. Weren’t you with Jesus?” I flat out denied it and cursed! I was scared. For the third time I denied Him. And then a rooster crowed! Just as He said! I can’t believe what I just did and I broke down sobbing! I looked up through my tears and my eyes met with Jesus’. It wasn’t a “told you so” look of condemnation. It was a look that said, “I still love you”. Well here I am a few hours later on Friday. I’m confused. Hopeless. Lost. What a nightmare I’ve been through. I just got word they are going to crucify Him. I’m not sure things could get any worse. If you could say anything to Peter what would it be? I know what I would say. Simply this, "Peter, Sunday is coming!” Jesus’ resurrection changes everything IN Life and ABOUT Life. What’s it changing in you? Pastor Jesse
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Rita
4/6/2017 11:04:22 am
WORST NIGHT EVER BUT PETER YOU & THE WORLD HAVE BEEN FOREVER DELIVERED!
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Anour
4/13/2017 11:52:21 pm
Love it!
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4/9/2018 01:12:34 am
I think that eyes can tell you about everything... So, I agree with this statement.
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